The Blood Red Box

Here, where my words mean the world but actions are meaningless.  My eyes continue to deceive me as I toil about the broken home of my once happy childhood.  Dishes still sat on the rotted wood of the dinning table.  My toys, strewn about the floor; resting where I last abandoned them decades prior.  I strolled down the front hallway that led to the kitchen; portraits of actors and actresses portraying members of a happy family adorned the yellowed walls of mold.  Faces familiar yet unrecognizable, danced under glass and wood, infested with age.

Dust and rat feces clung to everything like horrid words on a dirty page, and in the midst of my exploration I stumbled upon a box; sitting untouched on the parlor floor.  Not as unusual as one might gather.  Boxes seemed to be all about the floor in different stages of decay.  Yet this box was all together different.  For one it was clean; devoid of dust and dirt.  Not a single particle of misuse sat upon it.  The box was of a dark wood manufacture, with a hint of red in the grain.  Perhaps cherry or mahogany.  It was stained to shimmering brilliance.  So much so that I was startled to see my face as clear as a looking glass.  It’s hinges were brass.  That much was obvious.  Brass of the highest quality.  I dared open it then thought against it.  What the damned hell do I care about some box?   And yet, it was placed in the middle of the parlor.  On the dusty floor for anyone to see.  Anyone?  No, not anyone.  Me.  It was placed her for me to find, wasn’t it?

My mind was aware of something just out of my line of sight.  Blackish and without shape.  Like an early morning mist, only more dark and malevolent.   My eyes would not see it, yet I knew it was there all the same; watching me as if it were collecting information.  I lifted the box to examine the weight and instantly felt something shift from within.  The black shape that was still just out of my sight moved closer.  I could feel its foul breath upon my neck and I turned.  It retreated.

Holding the box with the utmost care, I lifted the golden hasp and noticed that it was crafted in the shape of a boar’s head.  The hand-crafted hinges groaned in complaint as I worked the lid open.  I set the box back down onto the broken floorboards and stepped away in haste.  One step, then another.  The black shape fell upon me and I was forced against my will to view the contents of the box.  At once, I was confused by what I beheld.  Blood, fresh crimson blood.  As I watched, the blood began to pool around the edges, sloshing like a wild boat at sea.  It spilled onto the floor and was absorbed into the moldy wooden floor.  The old wood turned dark like the red sea and instantly the house quaked and I swore to the saints that I heard it take a breath.  It spoke to me.  I trembled with abject fear.

What are you afraid of Walter?

“Whose blood is this?”  I asked out loud as the trebling of the old home increased.  I became unbalanced and lost my footing.  An opening in the floor appeared and I had the sense that it intended to swallow me whole.  I reached out and grasped the leg of the oak sideboard that my mother had purchased and it broke off and disintegrated in my hand like wet dust.  I fell, my hands – red with blood – grabbed hold of the ancient flooring.  The black malevolence appeared above me as a swirling ball of evil.  I asked again.

“Whose blood is this?”

Why, it’s your blood Walter.  It’s yours.


The Greatest Moments In DCI History

A self-indulgent essay in several parts.

Please bare with me…

Part 1


The smell of diesel and tar.  The comforting feeling of finally getting out of your uniform.  Having a smoke and chatting with the other corps before the busses leave.  To where?  You can never remember where you’re corps is headed next.  Another show.  Another night under the lights.

If you didn’t march, there’s no way for you to possibly understand how important these simple memories are.  Like the feeling of relief when you take your hat off as your walking through the tunnel; sweat running down your back.  It may have been a good performance or a bad one but it’s over.

Once the summer is over, memories are all we have to hold on to.  As time fades and adulthood creeps in, memories become elusive.  But these memories are visceral and have texture; like the smell of freshly cut grass.  For me, every summer the memories return.  I start to feel that need to hear some Drum Corps.  I wait – just like the rest of you, to see what my favorite corps’ program is.  My marching days are long gone, but the memories are alive and well.  I’ll attend a show and perhaps see an old friend.  We’ll talk about when this happened and laugh about when that happened.  I’m not only part of the past but a member of the future, because it’s that past that is creating the future.

The Drum & Bugle Corps activity has come a long way baby, from it’s meager beginnings in 1971 to where it is today.  We struggled through innumerable changes; both good and bad, but always moving forward, always evolving.  Drum Corps International has been thrilling fans for over 45 years.  The memories of those decades are thick with emotion.  And just like any other historical moment, these memories become frozen in time as we sit in the stands and cheer.

There have been so many great moments in the long history of DCI that it’s not an easy task to recall them all but I will do my best.

These recollections are in no particular order.

“The Winter Palace.”


On a foggy humid night in 1977, I saw The Phantom Regiment perform for the first time at a high school stadium in Belvidere, IL.  There were several corps competing that evening but none of them held me captivated like Phantom did.  The helmets gleaming in the field lights.  The long black capes; they were fascinating and mysterious.  I salivated over every note of the opening number: Dvorak’s New World Symphony.  Ironic, don’t ya think?

From that evening on, The Phantom Regiment was my favorite corps.  And though I did not march with them, they have forever held a special place in my heart.  Several of their programs throughout the decades are among my very favorite shows; save one: 1986.  The opening hits of Carnival Overture were powerful to be certain.  But there was something missing.  I didn’t know then what it was.  I can’t be sure that even they knew.

Placing 10th that year at nationals in Madison, WI might very well have been an omen of things to come.  There were whispers: “What’s going on with Phantom?”

“What’s going on with Phantom?”

Nobody outside of the organization could possibly have known the change that was about to come.

These days – with YouTube, Facebook, and other social media outlets, it’s not very hard to find news on your favorite corps.  We all wait impatiently for the first report of the upcoming season.  But back then, in 1987; it was winter, and no one was talking.  Little did any of us know:  “Winter is coming.”

If I recall correctly , I was in Des Plains, IL watching a show with a group of friends.  I didn’t march that year and regretted it.  I remember hearing a gasp – a sudden intake of air.  And someone pointed at the corps moving towards that backfield.  They wore a blast of clean white and black; flecked with shimmering silver.  Gone were the heavy shirts and baggy pants.  The most amazing transformation however, was the silvery-white plume perched on the helmet.  It was regal.  It was new.  It was shinny, and it was awesome.  They looked so good.  The name of the program that year was Songs From the Winter Palace, highlighting Tchaikovsky’s Swan Lake and Nutcracker.  It was a beautiful performance from beginning to end.  Seeing that show and witnessing that transformation brought me back to that foggy night in Belvidere.  Those same emotions returned.

The addition of the plume and the updated uniform brought a needed element to that and future programs.  And it didn’t hurt their GE score either…


The Garden

I sat on a rickety old chair inside the garden this morning and watched as the birds circled overhead as if waiting for me to die. Soon enough I tell them. What else is there to my life now?
All happiness has vacated. I walk the halls of this lonesome home wondering where I went so wrong. You were here just 10 short years ago, sliding on the hardwood floors in your slippers that were made not to slip. Your blonde hair cascading over unusually tan skin; too tan for the
winter season. You would have sand in your shoes from constant walks along the icy shore. I never did you wrong. I never meant for you to be hurt. I never meant for you to die. I never meant to kill you the way I did. I never lied to you. Why did you lie to me? The images in my mind of your presence are out of order. I see you as you were on that summer evening; blood trickling down from a gunshot between your eyes. Still, more beautiful than anything on this
cursed planet. Then I see you as the young lady I met so many years ago; spinning like a top on black heels. Our dance was a mystery. Did you love me then or was it later? Did you love me
at all? Did you love him more than I? Nothing matters to me anymore but the garden I have planted myself in. When the vegetation has grown around me and my heart no longer beats, then will you see me? Or will I have to enter through the gates of hell to find the two of you together

A little something from the Vault…

West Minster Abby

My first attempt at the great American Novel


Chapter 1 


The moon waxed purple and silver.  It was a vision I’d never witnessed before.  I have seen many strange and wonderful things here since I arrived ten years ago but never a purple moon.  I’ve seen a harvest moon; with its oranges and browns signaling the coming of autumn.  I’ve even seen a blood moon though I’m not quite sure what it means.  But never in my life have I seen a purple moon until this very evening.  Now it was around this time last year that Page’s hardware store burnt to the ground.  That was strange because prior to that, the last fire of any kind other than a camp fire in West Minster was 1973.  There were plenty of rumors floating around town that old man Page had had a number of financial problems.  We were all relieved to learn that old man Page and his store were fully insured.   

A year prior to that a child of six had gone missing; last seen on her way home from school.  The girl’s father had passed out drunk and forgot to pick her up.  This was not so strange; unforgivable yet not strange at all.  She thought she would have no difficulty at all finding her way home but after taking one wrong turn down a block she assumed she was familiar with, she got lost.  Three hours later she was found by her older sister sitting on a curb with her knees held to her chest, scared and alone and just a block away from home. 

I imagine that these events and others like them happen in small towns all over the country; nothing out of the ordinary.  And that’s why I love it here.  There isn’t much crime to speak of.  If I were a criminal West Minster, Illinois would not be on my list of potential visits.  We’re not even listed on the map.  When I say ‘the map’ I mean any map at all.  The closest interstate is thirteen miles away.  A few years ago, some congressman got lost on his way through and now the state is currently accepting bids to build a bypass to I-55.  Once that happens the peaceful town of West Minster will be no more.  

The increase in traffic will create more gas stations and the obligatory fast food chains.  Why hell, we might just get one of those trendy coffee shops with all those high-brow exotic flavors and free Wi-Fi.  I just might take advantage of that one. 

For now however, not much happens in this boring little hamlet.  That purple moon will most certainly make the front page of the West Minster Chronicle.  As a matter of fact, Lindsey Shae, the town’s one and only photographer was making her way up the path along the canal with her Nikon; seeking out the perfect vantage point.  Surely it will be her photos featured in the newspaper.  I strode up the small hill to greet her but she was gone.  She’s a quick one that Lindsey Shae.   

Soon enough the entire town was filing out into the street to gawk at the purple madness.  I stood there in silence; listening to their proposals and questions as to what might be the cause and watching the silver ripples in the water.  To most folks in West Minster the Canal is nothing more than a haven for mosquitoes.  It was once used, or so I’ve recently learned, to haul produce and other trade goods to and from Chicago and other towns along the Illinois River.  But I’m afraid that now it’s nothing more than what they say it is: a haven for mosquitoes. 

About one hundred yards east, down the dirt trail that runs along the entire stretch of the canal is an old wooden bench.  It was built in 1850 by Wilbur Hounds tooth, or so says the West Minster historical Society.  You can’t get a decent slice of pizza in this town but we have an historical society: go figure.  It was on that very bench about ten years ago that my life changed forever. 

Still glancing at the moon, draping everything it touches in a warm violet glow, I strolled to the bench and sat, inhaling the late spring air perfumed in lilac.  Please forgive me my dear reader.  I enjoy irony but unfortunately it is wasted here.  The lilac is simply a coincidence and by no means is it a by-product of the celestial glow. 

It was here that I met the man Tom Abby: the man that changed my life.  The man that saved my life, and the world… 

A sneak peak at my new book…

Winifred Melancholy

Chapter 1


Patrick Wells could not believe his dumb luck.  He always knew that bad luck seemed to follow him wherever he went: it was his destiny.  He knew from the beginning that this project would be a challenge, but never once did he imagine that it would be anything like this.  Usually, he didn’t have any trouble selling fairly priced, family sized homes.  The Baxter house though; well that took a set of balls that were larger than the ones he currently possessed.  Any real estate agent worth their salt knew that the Baxter house was a test.  It means that your firm is wanting to fire you and this is your last chance.  The task wouldn’t be so daunting if the house hadn’t been abandoned nearly 40 years ago.  

The owners wanted this house sold for half a million, and they wanted it on the market in a week.  He gave his word that it would be.  That was before he stood on the front lawn and witnessed for himself just what he gave his word to.   

“What in the world did you get me into Patrick?”  A voice called out from behind him. 

“I am so glad to see you.”  He said as he turned around and breathed a sigh of relief. 

“I bet you are.”  The woman said. 

Carol Cook was the top closer in the entire state of Illinois.  With nearly thirty years of experience in selling high end homes, Patrick needed her help but not her real estate expertise.  Given the demographic of the area, Patrick felt that he needed a woman’s touch.  She would do most of the work and he would collect the fees.  All she had to do was stand there and take the applications.  In other words:  In order to sell the Baxter house, Patrick needed a nice pair of tits; and Carol Cook had the best any man could ever wish to see.  Her legs were the type that most women half her age had to work hard for.  But her greatest quality was behind her.  At fifty years old, Carol Cook had an ass that was referred to in some circles as a dinner table. 

Yes Patrick Wells was a pig – a gaunt sickly little man with a permanent limp from an infection in his foot at a younger age. What was left of his hair was gray and stringy. His glasses were thick and heavy and did nothing to help his eyesight.  He had no chance of selling a house like this by himself.  But with Carol on board, he could do it. 

They walked up the broken flagstone steps together and took in the yard from the porch. It wasn’t much of a yard. The grass was dead and brown. The only green to be seen was weeds. Carol made a mental note to call Lawn MD. Patrick fumbled through his pockets and found the keys. To the astonishment of both of them, the front door pushed right open. What they found inside was beyond anything either of them had ever seen before. The floor wasn’t much other than dirt with a number of broken planks of wood scattered about. There were mice and rats everywhere. There were bags of garbage thrown about, and the smell was intolerable. 

“Let me see the sheet on this place.”  Carol demanded. 

A red brick Tudor style with five bedrooms, three bathrooms, a two bedroom servant’s cottage, and a driveway that encircled the entire home; built in 1921 by Nathan Thomas Baxter, as a wedding present for his wife Ethel. 

“Are you serious?”  Carol asked.  “This is so bad.” 

After their son William was born two years later, Nathan found that he enjoyed the company of other women to his wife, many other women.  In a jealous rage, Ethel got out of bed early one Sunday morning, dressed herself in her best finery, walked out to the garage where her husband kept his shotgun, and loaded it.  She stopped in the kitchen for a glass of wine then walked easily upstairs where her husband lay sleeping.  She placed the muzzle to his forehead and pulled the trigger; blowing most of his head into his pillow.  Ten minutes later and after a nice breakfast: Ethel turned the gun on herself. 

“Have you read this?”  Carol asked.  Patrick hopelessly nodded then they both stepped inside.  He felt as though he were walking through the carnage from some overseas conflict.  They stepped lively through the entranceway and into what appeared to be a family room.  Wax from decades old candles covered the mantle above a hand-carved stone fireplace.  Newspaper and unopened mail was scattered about the entire floor. 

“What do I need to read that for?”  Patrick exclaimed without looking.  “I’m right here in it.  Plus, I loathe reading those historical side notes.  Who cares?”  He bent down and snatched up an envelope.  The writing on the outside was illegible, and the paper itself deteriorated in his hands.  The sound of a crunching twig broke the silence and they both stepped towards the greasy window to see who had arrived, but when they peered out onto the yard, there was nothing there. 

They turned and instantly froze at the sound of someone whistling on the stairs in the next room.  No one was to be in this house but with the front door being unlocked there was no telling who might be sneaking in here.  

“I’ve seen enough.”  Carol said and walked back outside. 

“No Carol, please!”  He ran after her and tripped over one of the several loose floorboards; sending him through the air and landing directly behind her.  Moldy ash and splinters of rotten wood exploded into the air as Patrick dropped through the floor.  A deep moan could be heard coming from the newly formed opening as Carol knelt down beside it.  

“Patrick!”  She yelled.  “Are you alright?”  Nothing but a painful moan could be heard. 

Without having a clue where she was going, Carol carefully ran towards where she thought the stairs leading to the basement might be.  At one point she thought she might end up falling through the floor as well.  Along the hallway leading to the kitchen was a locked door.  Once again the wood was so rotten that she was able to simply open it with a small amount of force. 

“Patrick!”  She called out into the darkness as she made another mental note to suggest to the owners that they condemn this building, have it torn down, and take their losses. 

Once she reached the bottom step into the basement she felt something crawl across her foot and assumed it was a rat.  There was no light source of any kind; not even from outside.  She was standing in complete darkness.  The thought of going any further did not appeal to her, so she took one step backwards towards the stairs when she heard the door begin to close. 

“Hello?”  She hadn’t heard anyone else come in so perhaps it was just the wind.  There was no answer and the door continued to close. 

Still standing and the bottom of the steps, Carol felt an irresistible urge to vomit.  She raised her hands to her mouth in an attempt to block the smell of death.  But it wasn’t just the smell of death; it had permeated all of her senses.  She heard rustling on the dirty floor in front of her and hoped it was Patrick.  She bent down and felt for him, her hand felt something viscous and she instantly recoiled.  She reached out again and found his arm. 

A banging noise began from somewhere near the other side of the basement.  To Carol, it sounded like a hammer pounding metal.  Fear froze her in her place as she thought she saw something moving in the darkness.  The pounding got louder and she wanted out.  She hoisted Patrick up to his feet; draping his arm around her shoulders, and carried him up the stairs.  Once she reached the top of the stairs she kicked through the door and pulled him into the kitchen.   

The floor of the kitchen appeared to have the fewest amount of holes.  She placed him gently onto the floor and pulled out her cell phone.  No service, but that was no matter.  The scream that came from Carol as she turned was loud enough for someone to call the police for her.  She had turned to get a better look at Patrick but was horrified to see that not only was it not Patrick but Carol wasn’t even certain it was human.  The body was stained in dried blood, with most of its skin gone.  The hair was long so she assumed it was a female.  The police reassured her that the woman was more than likely homeless.  Taken in account the amount of decomposition, she’d been dead for about five to six weeks.   

“That’s impossible.”  She told them.  “When I picked her up, she was alive.”   

She attempted to explain to them what she had seen and heard but they were not interested in ghost stories, they were only interested in the whereabouts of Patrick Wells: and so was she. 

After that day, Carol Cook gave up real estate and settled down into a house of her own; alone.  She never wanted children.  Men would come and go but she no longer preferred the company of others.  She simply wished to live out her days in peace.  She would have done just that had it not been for the loud knock on her front door. 


The Followers

Just a little taste of what’s to come.  And I’m not 100% sold on the title.



What had he done?  

Without reason I turned around.  There – propped against the refrigerator; blood still pouring out of the hole in her neck – was my Mother.  In her left-hand was a pen.  Her right hand held a carving knife.  She had bled out onto the hideous Christmas sweater that I bought for her the previous year.  It was a joke but she loved it and wore it as often as she could.  It was destroyed now.  Blood had caked up any thought of Christmas.  The only thing discernable was the jingle bell on the elf’s hat.  Her face was pale and lifeless.  Such a ridiculous thing to say, yet true.  Her eyes held my gaze and I thought for a moment that she was actually looking at me as if trying to tell me who had done this to her.  I stepped back and fell; not to my knees like in the movies but like I was a broken puppet that just had its strings cut.  I looked again at the pen in my mother’s hand.  Wrapped around the pen was a torn piece of paper.  I took it and read it.  Then I reached for my cell and called the police.  They were pronounced dead at the scene, like that really needed some genius attempt at on their part.  Double suicide were the words that were told to me.

I never went back to Chicago.  That life no longer held any joy.  I learned a few years later that Emma had got into some trouble with the local authorities and found herself doing 10 to 20 for possession of a controlled substance with intent to sell to a minor.  Nor did I stay in Tennessee.  I left – hoping not to ever love anything ever again.

Everything I touch turns to ash.

The Followers

New story idea.

It began like a movie; slowly at first – giving you time to settle in to the idea, the plot. I always knew that I was different. I knew that I had followers. But as I got older the memories of the past become elusive like the smell of a distant lilac bush on a hot summer day. I can’t tell you when exactly that it began, only that it did and that’s it. It began and it hasn’t stopped.

I assumed, as a young boy that one day I would tell someone, but I never did. Not even my parents knew my secret. You, my dear adventurous reader, are the first to know my story. And I must apologize to you. For once you become aware, you too will be different. My advice to you would be to turn these pages cautiously.